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Gambling addiction communion ideas

Postby JoJor В» 27.08.2019

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You do not know me, I do not know you but we are all united in our affliction of compulsive gambling. I am not even sure what I am going to say to you all in my introductory post, sorry but I do not think that there will be words of wisdom, answers to the unfathomable.

I guess right now I need to talk even if it is just garbled nothingness. I am trying to type past this block of support us my profile and log out that is seemingly stuck on the page. The only peace, escape I have from the distorted mind and thoughts is sleep right now, shame I can not sleep forever, sleeping beauty am not, my prince would be freedom. I need a new identity, I don't want to live with this disguise for what ever I do I can not escape from the me in the now, not gambling, but still running, too afraid to stop.

I did say no words of wisdom : you were informed. Welcome, The. End I have no words of wisdom either. But, someday our Prince will come!!!

Welcome to this forum. There is a lot of support here. I understand about living with a disguise. Noone, including my husband, who gambled right alongside me, had any idea how badly hooked I was. I am still struggling, but I have some tools now to aide me.

I hope you keep posting, let us know how you are doing. Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment.

So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you. PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

Hello The. End and welcome to the forum. I went to bed too many times totally exhausted and disillusioned after losing big, losing huge, wishing I could sleep for a long, long time or wishing I could shrink, shrink to the size of a sand grain; must be possible I reasoned, we're empty space for the most part, we just don't have the technology yet.

And then, shrunk I would hide and let the time pass until I forgive myself and more importantly until my gambling-caused problems are gone. So I would crawl under my blankets, cover myself completely and wish that I could hide and that no one would find me or miss me.

But the morning would come too soon, the unforgiving reality would enter the day and the magnitude of the despair I found myself in, once again, would dawn on me. I haven't gambled in 37 days now. My advise, for what it's worth, is you need to trick or reprogram you brain into not gambling. Get a different perspective on the whole thing.

Hi The. Welcome to GT. We all wear masks. We all want relief. How many want a "cure". A "cure" will make you stop in your tracks and discard the disguise. Take off the mask. Re programming the brain. Changing the mindset. Doing things differently. Waking up. Call it what you will. What do they mean? Different things to different people , at different times. Action is all that matters. Small actions. One day at a time. Many thanks for your replies JansDad, Vera, Kpat and Can do this, I am overwhelmed that you have taken time to reply to me.

I will write later I just wanted to let you know that I am grateful for your messages of support. Hello Vera, thank you for your enquiry as to how I am doing, very kind of you. I am still gambling free, although I think the not gambling is the easy part, believe it or not.

I am having great difficulty in dealing with other aspects of my life, so so tired all the time, completely drained and since my doctor doubled my anti depressant medications just over a week ago, even more tired, am not sure if the side effects are worth it but I am trying to persevere for the time being. I am off work at the moment and have been for the past five weeks, and right now I have no idea how I am ever going to be able to go back, which in itself is a huge problem as due to my financial mess, that will make it even more problematic than it is already.

I have an awful lot of areas in my life that need addressing, so many things that I have run away from for years and I am at least at the stage of recognising this although that does not make it any easier to face these things, so as usual on hold hidden away in some dark place that I really don't feel strong enough to visit. My biggest concern is that many times in the past, over the years I have stopped gambling for months at a time the last time prior to this was six months.

I have destroyed myself constantly over the years, each time believing this was it, no more! Yet, I again find myself in the cycle of stop start, this time though I would say it is definitely the closest that I have ever got to jump off bridge time, as I can not continue with this pain, despair, worthlessness, guilt and hopelessness cycle any more, I am trying to solve the reason for the need to always run, always hide, always escape.

I am struggling with the thoughts of no matter that I no longer gamble, no matter that I am trying to overcome this addiction, the damage has been done and I really have not a great way forward, unfortunately. What an absolute idiot I have been all these years, prior to this I lived a normalish lol life and no matter what folk tell me the reality is that has gone forever due to the chaos and mess I created, well done me. Anyhow despite all of this, I am here reading everyone's stories and for the NOW which is all I have for sure I am not on that horrid rollercoaster of the gambling demon.

May we all be well and free from this hideous addiction. God bless you all. HOw are you doing End? I can totally relate to everything you wrote. I am on meds, and am constantly beating myself up. If I had had the ability and sense to stop last year, exactly this time last year, then I would not be in this position.

If I had worked harder on our big project it would have been finished sooner. Much sooner. I should have paid off the company debts when we had the money. I should have been more organised. I can go on and on. I am so close to killing myself. But what good will that do, I just leave a mess behind. Is that the answer? I hope not. Please write again and let us know how you are. We love you loads. We are here to support you.

I know that now I have given up gambling for 10 days this is just withdrawel. That will pass, but when will I get myself back. Hi maverick Thank you for your message. I have followed your posts on the forum and understand how very difficult things are for you right now. I tend to spend far too much time thinking of the what if I had stopped at this time and that etc, alas it is to no avail, not one of us can turn back the hands of time no matter how strong the desire to do that is.

I do not know who this person is that gambled my life away, until that started I was on target for a secure life, clearly I did not deserve that. I would like to say that I am now feeling great and all is hunky dory, but then would I be being truthful?

It's the crushing debt that I have Mav, knowing that I have ruined so many lives with this over the years, knowing that there is nothing I can do to change my situation even if I never gambled a penny ever again, I have created too much of a nightmare to recover from. This is where I am totally stuck, I have so many other things going on in this screwed up life of mine that in a way I feel like do what you want with me people cos I am past caring, it's all too much of a mountain, they say you get what you deserve in life so that confirms what I already know I am worth minus nothing lol anyway Mav thank you for taking time to message me, I wish you well in your recovery I think you can be a success again just need to focus on what you are capable of achieving, show your wife and son how much they mean to you, you can do it Mav x.

Thanks for answering End. Your story hits home so much. I know I do not know the ins and outs, but this affliction of ours creates so many problems. I am so gutted by what I have done but actually I am not surprised. I guess we all know where this disease takes us - it takes everything from us and leaves us with nothing but depression, broke, no future. IN a way I wonder if this was the best thing that could have happened to me.

It is making me look deep inside of myself to find out who I really am and who I can be. It's not a joke for me anymore - I have screwed up too much and the dream I invested in my business has crumbled, for no reason that I was more interested in gambling isntead of working. I am sure you can get through this. Please keep posting - how long have you been gamble free for?

I remember you from some of the early online group sessions I attended. Well yesterday, my ipad had a severe issue, it was continually turning itself off and on I could do nothing, so spent a while on main PC trying to troubleshot this issue, everything suggested would not work.

I then read about a process to set into recovery mode via iTunes, again this was no use, However, I persevered and eventually after many hours I was able to get it to be recognised by ITunes and able to recover it. Unfortunately, this meant that it was totally reset to factory mode new and clean how I long to be that Ipad I had lost all my data pictures videos etc.

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Postby Gugrel В» 27.08.2019

Check out this story on postcrescent. Been to all those places and shared all those emotions Liberty! Pets really can become part of the family and are a big loss when they move on.

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Postby Dami В» 27.08.2019

Would she be willing to come into the Friends and Family group on Tuesdays I know what I used to do but I don't have that option any more. Wisconsin Council on Problem Gambling fact sheet:.

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Postby Bragrel В» 27.08.2019

Good to chat with you earlier, Liberty. Ideas disappear to rooms when cleaning to be communion, I have said I am going gambling bag up all their stuff and bin it as clearly they do addiction want it, everything just feels too much maybe I am being unreasonable but do I have to wait on them hand and foot until they leave? Your dog would have been content just go here in your company they do not ask for a lot so nothing to feel guilty about that Happy. I've been pushing myself for years.

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Postby Morisar В» 27.08.2019

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Postby Mauktilar В» 27.08.2019

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Postby Fenrishakar В» 27.08.2019

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Postby Vudojora В» 27.08.2019

If someone was going to judge me for anything that I have done, they are not a good person. I can't really advise you as click what you need to do in your relationship as I don't know the dynamics of your relationship. I am so gutted by what I have done but ideas I addiction not surprised. I have had a hymn stuck in my head today from my church days, This is it 1 What a Friend we have in Jesus, All our sins and griefs to gambling So today I remember her and all the wonderful moments we shared, I communion her clearly now, com,union in my memory she will never die.

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Postby Samut В» 27.08.2019

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Postby Gom В» 27.08.2019

You are worth it! I noticed check this out after I first made a seriuos effort at quitting, my anxiety got much worse too as well as depression, but as some time went by, it did ease up as time went by. You are doing good being here sharing your pain.

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Postby Zubei В» 27.08.2019

Who cares? Rejection can set us cmomunion. Ok, then you sort it out, you seem to fourteen the answers when I don't. It is a selfish addiction, but that is not to say that the person is selfish although it appears play way, that year only care about us and our next fix, if only it were read article simple then we would all have just stopped when we games to that point.

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Postby Mezijora В» 27.08.2019

Very best wishes to all and I wish you all rest and freedom from the pain clmmunion compulsive gambling trust and obey your good x. I like that Liberty. Hi Liberty just been reading addictin your thread it's almost a mirror http://castdraw.site/2017/games-online-thoroughbred-2017.php of how i feel somedays, anxious, article source depressed you are very honest and up front about it all and i like that ,i too have suffered from depression for many years now : There is hope for us all who reach out and for it : M. Yes, I have stopped posting at the moment, just not had much to say lately, too much to think about with no answers to problems play the gqmbling and what will happen as have said many times before, never gambling again can't undo the damage done previously over many years, how you move on games that I do not know.

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